Completely IRRELEVANT to anyone on here but I thought hey, its already 2018 your old as shit why don’t I put my thoughts out there in how my life is going since.
Yeah I am, because my departure for Japan and China was supposed to be for this month, unfortunately when I rescheduled my flights from last year were misinterpreted SOMEHOW and set my schedule for 2019 instead. I did throw a fit to them about this but eventually Ive calmed down and just managed things like an adult, took 5 phone calls but I managed to lower my expensives on my stay there because of this.
September 13 for 7 days ill be staying in Beijing and Shanghai
September 20 Ill finally arrive in Japan Ill be visiting Osaka, Kyoto, MTkoya,Hakone and Tokyo until the 28th and extending my stay until Oct.8
SO YES i will be In Japan for Halloween season month which has been my dream will be trying all Halloween themed cafes and food It would’ve been better to stay for actual Halloween but not like its a big holiday for them in general to care.
I was really bummed about this set back but not the type to beat around the bush jotted all the positives:
More spending money to save
More time for me to learn Japanese (going back to school for that btw)
my car should be payed off by the end of the year.
More time for me to reach my weight goal (purposely for a tattoo ill be getting over there)
More family time
Basically I just have more money and opportunities to do things, I might even go to conventions and cosplay something I’ve always wanted to go for and now have the money to do.
ART LIFE GOALS:
Ive been pushing myself to bring back my passion more than just doodle garbage been pushing for finished good illustrations, Ive been posting quite a bit and growing on insta until some prick started reporting all my drawings so I have to start from scratch again which is a shame because I grew a decent enough audience to finally work on some shirt and pin designs Ecchi and NUDE work is a difficult genre to go for without getting reported every while. Going to keep going tho.
One thing I’m so terrible at is giving myself a break and allowing myself to be proud of the things Ive done. Always been very hard on myself though, Ive done much more than what some people would with their lifes I feel for my age.
Ive gone to Ireland, gotten to experience living on my own with my wonderful friends and roomates( I love you Robert and Hector thank you for giving an opportunity like this.) Cant wait to save and be fully on my own tho<3 house is definitely a future goal of mine.
Personal life:
Not bad at all life has been really good to me for the past 4 years I think the only time I hit my lowest is when my brother was struggling with his life nearly everyday after his many surgery’s. I so HAPPY and relieved he is doing so much better.
Friendships:
Even tho I only see them once a month or so they understand me and couldn’t ask for more<3 we are all busy bees now but I love you no less nor miss you less guys.
I AM SO HAPPY to have baby Ciara back in my life I love you so much Ciara you are my literal soulmate. Maybe its over dramatic and cheesy but I always felt a big whole in my heart with out you in my life for that short while, Im just happy we are talking again bb. Shouldn’t have let garbage ideas in my head to think like you owed me an explanation for anything it was selfish, childish and pathetic. I’m happy you are still apart of my life💕
Start by focusing yourself on your breath for 5 minutes.
Go back to a forest or other outdoor natural setting. Find your sacred space, your personal clearing in the woods that is only yours. It can be a picnic, a tent or a shack. You’ve decorated it yourself with herbs and a circle of flat, white rocks. There are two bushes there, stinging nettle, for protection. Be sure not to touch it.
Sit here and notice your body, where your feet are, how your ankles and knees are bent, where your arms are. Bring your attention to your skin. We’re going to put a silver metal onto it. Imagine the liquid silver climbing up from your toes, up your legs, across your stomach, and up your back, over your shoulders, and up over your head and face. Let the metal harden like armor, able to move when you move but hard enough to keep out anything. Sit and feel what this changes in yourself and how the outside feels like now.
Now imagine this silver armor expanding like an egg around you and encompassing your aura. It is dark in here, in the silver metal. You can place your palm on the metal surface and feel its smoothness.
Expand the silver out further until it is as big as your space, enclosing the picnic and even bigger to gather in the entire clearing which is yours. Let it reach into the trees and form a nice, smooth circle along the ground.
You can barely see the trees here. Let’s make the silver translucent. The hard material changes color, turns to glass, but unbreakable. We can see the trees now, the sun shining down, through the dome. Set your intention to your dome: to be safe, to ward against all influences and spirits not in accordance with your own energy, with peace and quiet.
Lastly. let’s change its material. Let that hard dome shift in an instant to a cloud, airy and still there, still filled with your intent, but we are able to pass through it easily now, able to let our thoughts breathe through it.
Finish by creating a little project here. Gather some twigs or rocks or feathers and flowers and create a symbol or sigil of protection with them.
A pentagram, a spiral going counter-clockwise, circles within squares and squares within circles. As you create, send your intention into your symbols and creation.
Your space is now protected. Sit and feel the difference in its energy. Come back with a big inhalation. Ground afterward with a snack.
